I want this pain as it pours down on me.
I want this hurt that keeps badgering –
unrelenting and grasping.
This merciless spasm is a dagger through me –
forever pushing and prodding –
making me promise
to never get down on my knees.
I’ll clench my fists and keep fighting.
It knocks me hard and leaves me bruises –
if I should even lean towards defeat.
Don’t stop this perpetual pain –
this excruciating screw in my brain.
It’s a continuum of agony that I need.